Down, down, and where is up?

I feel like I am in the same position again- trapped, reluctant, and losing my direction.

It has been three months since last time I drew lines on this blog. However, nothing has advanced, and I am still unemployed. Worst of all, my internship is not going to turn to a job, and I do not have much time left in the states.

I am so afraid that I am going to lose my life, and it seems like I am powerless to do anything, and the time is not on my side.